Ruditchka62, 62

Shy, loner, but good guy seeks same in a gal.... Hey there! First of all, I'm glad to have found this site since its hard for me to go to a regular personals site and "pretend" I'm normal! lol Anyway, I'm a great guy..., honest, loyal, caring and a bit too sensitive for my own good...., I guess that's part of the reason I'm afraid to give up the security I've found in being alone and living a content existence! But yes.., I am quite lonely at times and would like to find someone whom also has social anxiety problems. I don't like crowds, feel wierd when I go shopping and pass people I don't know, and try to stay away from conflicts because I will protect my comfort zone like an animal that is cornered... I'm responsible, have old-fashioned values, and am a gentleman though... I know , sounds crazy, but its true. I'm constantly thinking about everything and have problems sleeping sometimes, I can get depressed just by thinking about my uneventful life, but try to keep an optimistic outlook. Hmmmm, what else????? I am very self-conscious and care about how I present myself. I don't judge people by what others say, only by what I see and feel about them. Don't care what others have or do, and live life one day at a time. I hide all of these things pretty well and you'd never guess it, but I want to find someone I can relate to. I like the outdoors and nature but also don't mind staying home and relaxing at home at all. I'm very independent and rely on nobody for anything unless absolutely necessary. I'm in great physical health, am non-violent to others,and am uncomfortable until I know someone!! I'm funny and people love my company, but I always find a reason to not go out. I'll have an occasional drink(not often) and used to party and had my problems there too but have been straight for a long while now. OK..., now that I've made myself out to be some kind of creep or something(which I'm really not), I guess I just blew my chances of meeting a nice gal here. lol