Brion888, 57

I live alone (but I am not so much alone). I have one friend with whom I spend my free time. And my other relations outside work have much to do with him. Inside work I have casual friendships. But have not pursued them further. I never have had a girlfriend...but have had female friends and lovers. My introversion has left me outside conventional love relations. I have been a student of alternative spirituality since about the age of about 15 years old. This includes metaphysics, occultism, supernatural, ....and even extends to romantic epic poetry....Dante and the sort. I have had an increased interest in other women articulating their sense of being isolated from typical society, social norms, being outside of the majority in school (high school, junior high school, etc.)...I say this because of my social inabilities at those times are somewhat of a shadow in memory. I do not know who to talk to about these things. I have other ponderings....
Physically I am attractive, my sun sign is Aquarius..rising sign Taurus. But I am very airy...detached..but emotionally I need attachment...but I am still so unable.....much yearning....much at arms length.