Frenchthinker, 48

I often had troubles in my life as I was different from other people, and I had not a good intuition of how to behave "normally". I strongly felt the way I was mocked by my mates at school when I was young, and I feel somehow always persecuted and accused by the society for my difference (and also my bad luck of being in an environment that I feel somehow hostile as it did not fit for me: stupid school system, and then, unbearable singleness). I have hesitations in my way of speaking, I don't find my words very well. This may not look so on the web as, with time, I have deeply thought on all problems, I built strong convictions, and found ways to express all that clearly and strongly in written form. But this is only possible because I have verified so much the truth of my conclusions before claiming them, to not take the risk of making mistakes; and how to explain things in clear. I'm generally afraid to be disturbing, so I don't easily dare to start conversations - though I started exercising this some years ago - nor introduce myself when other are speaking. So it makes it hard for me to start a relationship with a new person I meet in real life : I hardly dare to say I love someone, I'm afraid to be disturbing or doing things wrong. Internet can make this much easier.
Finally, I consider shyness as something attractive: I think a love relationship with another shy person would be very nice, if only the first meeting problem could be solved.