Bigtot84, 40

I hope I say the right thing here and don't sound foolish I never know what to say. I'm very much looking forward to this new kind of shy oriented dating sight. This will be my first time at this sort of thing. hey all of you pretty young ladies there how are ya'll doin whats goin on. Let me introduce myself well here goes. I'm very shy I'm gonna say or else I would't be here. that may or may not be be seeming to others but I've been around a little and have learned a little coping skills along the way. Theres so many things I want to say all at once here. I've always had trouble making my words and stuff always make sense like everyone elses. I don't even feel like they all really sound right even here but I am trying. I have never expeirienced real love with a loving woman that really understands and cares for me. I'm kinda of afraid I'm gonna get my heart broken here but I got to at least try. Gonna be brutally honest now and say that Ive tried to use drugs to cope in the past and haft to admit it was the biggest mistake of my life. I now live the life of sobriety and try to preach that message on to others. Ok I guess I should start of by tellin you guys what I'm doin with my life now. I am currentlly pursuing two different job outlooks at two different colleges. The first is welding and I wish to become as schooled and advanced as I possiblly can at it. My second prospect I don't know what I was thinking being the shy type when I decided to get in to it is massage therapy. I think though it may do some good though cause its just gonna through me head first into a enviorment where shyness just has to kinda vanish if you know what I'm trying to say. My mind track was just thinking yeah them people seem from what I've gathered to make a good amount of money. I decided to go to school because even though I make money legally gambling in my it's something one just can't let there life revolve around and I don't intend to do that and definately nev